I think that ballads are always something where I can really become one with the audiance.
Even where friendship is concerned, it takes me a long time to trust people.
If I get to wrapped up in how I have to be, or what I have to do, things gradually get worse and worse.
Now, on nights that I can't sleep, I play video games alone until the morning.
For the most part, I don't care about what everyone else is doing, or what is popular.
If I can't get a mental image from the song, I won't sing it.
Until now, I was insecure and I believed what the people around me said in regarding what I should sing.
I wish I could balance life as an artist and a mother, but sometimes when I am doing live concerts, I have to ask people to help me in my other role.
Aside from my work, in my everyday private life, I'm not a very adventurous person. I don't look for change.
I had no choice in the decision to make myself available. I was not always doing things I wanted to do.
When I was snowed under with the work of an idol, I didnt have time to think.
When I was younger, there was a huge gap between what I wanted to do and what I could do as an idol.
Simply, there are many things I would like to do.
Even my closest friend said I was finished, but I think I may be a little different from the others.
My popularity plunged three years ago and I didn't try to court publicity.
Actually, recording the Suite Chic album was so much fun and while working on this new album, people that I've worked with from Suite Chic has lend their voice.
If I don't think about anything, and start with a clean slate, in terms of what I have to do, a lot of different ideas come up, and I can think about things more openly.
I get even more nervous singing when everyone's fallen silent, but I really try to communicate the meaning of the lyrics, and there's people there listening to that, and if they're moved by it, then I'm moved as well.
After I can be happy with knowing that I did what I wanted to do.
I guess you could say I'm cautious, or a coward.
I stopped caring what people thought.
I enjoyed the opportunities, but there was no time to think.
I think afterall, a promotion video is a piece of work in it's own right.
I never had the chance to consider what or how I wanted to be.
People around me called me an idol, so that's what I was.